IT'S BEEN so long, 4 years exactly, since I shared any of the mundane happenings of ME. I recently went back and read all my previous entries & I've come to the acute realization that I HAVE CHANGED! At first, I was like, "Wow! This was where my mind really was! I had it going on!" But as I read more, digested some things, reassessed & re-evaluated how much has happened in 4 years, my wow slowly transformed in WTF! I've changed jobs, moved 3 times, been engaged, ended friendships that I'd thought would last a lifetime, rekindled & formed relationships w/people I never imagined would ever work out in the end (and sustained them), ended the engagement, finally got into graduate school (online), then put that on hold...the list can go on & on. In the mist of all this inevitable change, I can readily admit that I lost myself for a little while. I looked in the mirror one day, found I was 10 lbs heavier, exhausted, high strung & stressed. BLOOD PRESSURE THROUGH THE ROOF! Up to my knees in self-denial, drowning in self-seclusion. I even felt like I was on the verge of a major breakdown...
THEN THE UNTHINKABLE happened...a prayer that I had been saying for a year & a half was answered & God help in the form of my mama, BABE, the Brickhouse herself. I slowly found myself getting back to, rediscovering, & FALLING IN LOVE with ME...
WHERE DOES THIS LEAD ME NOW
Well, after a few tears & meeting someone who has inspired me to rekindle an old passion, I'M BACK! For the next few weeks, I'll simply post some journal entries, just as my own form of catch-up.
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